10.18.2011

Are You A Poser?

Do you ever feel like you're trying to be someone you're not?
"Actions reveal what you really believe, no matter how much you profess what you are." *


Early this morning...like 12:15'ish...I read the first day of this devotional on my iPhone.


Then I went to bed.


So I either started my day or ended my day positively!


The quote above has stuck with me this morning. I really want to be who I say that I am.


Often this feels false. I struggle to be the man that I want to be. Whether it be as a husband, or father, or friend, or community member, my desires often are so far off from what I do each day.


I want to have a great weekend with my family...but actually spend the much of the time arguing with my kids about the cleanliness of their rooms.


I want to create the art that's stuck in my head...but I spend my time watching Fringe or The Office or some other brain numbing show on HolyCrapIWasted3Hours, I mean Hulu.com.


I want to build relationships with friends and loved ones...but I focus my time on the next tweet or profile update.


I want to feel good and live in health...but I eat junk food and don't bother with exercise.


"People look at you and think you're saints, but beneath the skin you're total frauds." (Matthew 23:28 MSG)


I do what I don't want to do, and I don't do what I want to do. Paul said something like that.


So what should I do? 


I read this article recently. It's pretty heady stuff and I can't say that I know it to be true, or even understand where it's going at some points!


This passage toward the end stuck out,


"Be wary of the roles you play and the acts you put on, because you tend to fulfill the labels you accept."


The basic point that I pulled out of this was that when I agree to do something, in many cases I internally choose to be it. I become what I choose to do.


So in the case of better living, I must choose to do the things now that I wish I wanted to do. If I want to be a guy who wants to exercise. I need to start exercising. If I want to be one who wants to photograph, I need to start snapping pictures. If I want to want to follow Jesus, I need to start following Jesus.


Doing something creates the desire to do it. 


In my life I want to want to:


  • Follow Jesus
  • Build a Legacy
  • Improve the World
  • Create Art
  • Explore Adventures


My aim is to start doing these more regularly. In doing them, I'll want to do them more.


Making sense?


* Bryant Wright, Right From The Heart 1-Minute Devotionals, via YouVersion Bible App